Well here I am making a blog

OK. I consider myself pretty computer savvy but this whole blog thing is wearing me down. I've fought it and fought it but every day I find that one more person in my family has one. Sara started it for me and then Phil tells me he has one. On Phil's I see links to Laura and Chara. I have been reading their entries each weekend. Tonight I find Meredith's. Mom tells me Pat has one but she's on the crazy Xanga site. I simply can't find hers. So... I figure why not me? Maybe everyone else will enjoy keeping up with our family as I have with their's. So here I am. Making a blog. I hope it's not too terribly boring for all of you.

Taylor will probably be mad as we've made her take her's down. But she is learning proper computer etiquette and well, frankly, we don't like all the stuff these young kids write. We don't want her reading it or having the temptation to write some of that stuff. Maybe sometime in the future, we will let her try again.

As I sit here, I think of many topics now that I can write about. My life is so crazy - we are so busy with work and the kids it seems there's never time for anything. And if I get a piece of time, I just want to sit quietly and reflect, watch a good movie or put my nose in a good book. But with kids, these quiet times don't happen until at least 10:00 at night and well, by then I'm so worn out I need to go to sleep.

Sleep... that's an interesting topic for me. I just recently found out (all due to Chance's nagging) that I have sleep apnea. I did two nights in the sleep clinic and I must say that was quite an experience. I am very lucky to have the insurance I have. After receiving almost $6,000 in medical bills for those two nights, I'm only having to pay $60 for it. I am still (after almost 4 weeks) waiting for approval for my very attractive mask. If what they tell me is true, I will be a new woman after a couple of weeks with that hideous thing. And if what they tell me is true, I hope to God I get that darn thing soon as now I'm scared of checking out in the middle of the night. Evidently I stop breathing about 9 times an hour and I'm so not wanting to develop heart disease. With our family history and all this weight I have now, I am really nervous about that.

Other topics I can pursue... motherhood. Life with a stressed out 4 - 5 year old. Preparing for Kindergarden. Dealing with 7th grade angst. Helping your kid keep her grades up without going insane. Angst of the 13 year old girl. Angst of the parents of a 13 year old girl. Will I ever find peace and quiet again? Just 24 hours worth on occasion will help. (Thanks grandma!) OH I can go on and on.

Working in education...defying all the politics. What the heck happened to my 5 year plan? It's been 12 years and counting. Now I'm stuck. The benefits are too good and I'm not getting any younger. What the hell else will I do with myself if I leave? The dream of working from home...having more time with my kids. That is the major dream I have. Well, and winning the lottery. That's a good one too. If I get that dream, then the dream of spending more time with my kids and leaving my job will definitely come true!

How lucky I am to have the parents that I have. I have some friends who are stuggling with parents in crisis and it is really heartbreaking to watch. I offer as much moral support as I can and then go home and thank God for my wonderful parents. But I do struggle with how to help my friends. I will write more later.

Owning your own business... pros and cons. Having a seasonal business brings all kinds of issues to mind. But having my husband home more, even if he is busy designing, is much more valuable than hitting the time clock and never seeing him.

Marriage...why is my husband so wonderful and crazy at the same time? He's a mature adult and a big kid all at the same time. Makes life very interesting.

Well evidently there is alot of stuff going on in my head. Journaling has always been a passion of mine but I don't take much time to do it anymore. Maybe I can keep this up. Who knows?

I can't believe how grown up and intellectual my cousins are. I really do love reading their blogs and viewing all the pics. I've even enjoyed looking at Laura and John's dinners! And bras... who'da thought bras would be a fun topic? And as always the kids. I know they've grown alot since January, Sara! Need some more pics. LOL

I hope this is a good start. Guess I'll post and see what this looks like. I have to go against the norm and hopefully I will be able to figure out how to personalize this thing to my taste. Need some purple on my page.

Until next time...