A Motherhood Reflection

I am not a morning person and never have been. When I was younger, my mother would come in to wake me up or would get on to me if I got back in bed after my alarm went off. She would be standing there all perky and alert acting as if I was absolutely off my rocker for being unable to get up. I would lay there and wonder how in the world she could get up so early every day and appear as if it were 5:00 in the afternoon. I thought there had to be seriously wrong with her and just knew there would be no way in the world I would EVER get up early every single day and be awake and alert. NEVER!!!

This week has been absolutely exhausting for me. I'm on emotional overload, not getting enough sleep, and very stressed with many things pulling me in different directions. Yet, at 6 a.m. every morning, I am the one who has to get up and get everyone else up. I am running on empty.

This morning I'm standing in the middle of Tristan's room, explaining to him that he can in fact get up whether he's tired or not. That if he just tries, it will get easier as he moves around. That we all have our priorities for the day and must get them done. That the clock stops for no one and we have to be there on time. I'm trying to appear awake and alert. Inside, I am so tired and want to crawl back in bed. I don't even know how much longer I'm going to be able to stand still without falling asleep standing up.

And then....my mother appears in my head. I see her standing there telling me the same stuff. I suddenly realize that maybe she felt exactly the same way I did at that exact moment. Maybe she wasn't as insane as I originally thought! She was just doing her motherly duty. Then I look down at my son and he is looking at me as if I am the craziest person he's ever seen. He thinks I have no clue how he feels and that it is impossible to get up as I have asked. He is thinking, he will never get up every day that early and be ready to go like his mother.

Ahh...the circle of life.

Been wanting to write

but the writing bug just hasn't bit me hard enough in the past few months. I think all the time of stuff to write but just haven't sat down and done it.

Chance and I need lots of prayers. Things haven't been going our way for some time. I won't bore you with all the details. It feels like we take one step forward and get knocked back about 10. Today we did our taxes and this year we owe tons of money. Not sure how we are going to pay that. On top of that, we've been worried about the business. Things don't look good.

Thanks to Chance's stepbrother, he's been working at the Department of Education since January as a temporary employee. This has been a godsend. His Premier paychecks have finally stopped so this paycheck keeps us dog paddling. Landscaping is a luxury and although we've received a few calls, people just can't justify spending the money. Many of our returning customers we've had for years are finally stopping their patronage. It really sucks. Chance has been trying to figure out what to do with himself. He has been in landscaping since he was 16 years old. It's all he knows. He has wanted "out" for some time but just didn't know which direction to turn. This new temporary job has given him a focus. He's naturally good with computers and working as an IT tech these past few months has really peaked his interest in the field. I'm very happy to say that he's gone back to school and is planning on earning his Associate degree in computer science. He's taking two classes right now, is enrolling full time in summer and in 3/4 time in the fall. He's pumped and kinda peeved it's gonna take him so long to get it. He would take all 60+ credit hours in one semester if he could. But I am so happy for him. This experience has gained him some confidence in himself. He realizes he can do something besides plant trees. I've been telling him for years to stop putting himself down. He's been running a business and utilizing skills that some people simply don't have. But he's just never seen that part of himself. So now, he's doing great in his first class and his testing has gone well. He's ready for the challenge and I am very proud.

Tristan and Taylor are having a good year in school. The IEP is really helping Tristan and he has improved alot. He is still not at his grade level but he's made significant progress. His teachers tell us we have to work with him all summer. Summer school is taught above his level and will do no good. I hope I can step up to the challenge and keep him going. Taylor is simply doing very well. We hope she will have her driver's license tomorrow. Then the begging to borrow the car will begin. I'm not looking forward to that!

I'm enjoying spring break this week. Haven't really got to meet my goals yet but there's always tomorrow.

Well I don't wanna bore you with any more. I will write again soon and hopefully have something to say.

Checking in...

I had a near death experience on Saturday on my way to work. It was really scary and I know that someone was watching over me. Without boring you with the details, basically the bozo in front of me stopped in the middle lane of a highway cuz he missed his exit. He just sat there and I couldn't move. Cars were coming up behind me at 80 mph and almost wrecked trying to avoid hitting us. I was never so scared in my life. I screamed at the top of my lungs. I don't know how we all got through that without getting hurt. So, yea, my prayers have multiplied tremendously since then. Things are in perspective. I guess I was at a point that I needed a good thorough reorganization of priorities. Definitely got the message.

When I got to work, I was trembling and then was told I had to give two 20 minute presentations. Here's the powerpoint, you have about 15 minutes to figure out what you are going to say. Luckily I had to shove my fears aside and get to work. It helped but it's stayed with me and won't be going away any time soon.

Tristan started his IEP (individualized education plan) about 3 weeks ago. I hope he is doing well, but it's scary when you see his homework go backwards in learning level. On the bright side, we have no problems getting through homework as he is confident and can figure most of it out on his own. His papers have smiley faces and he gets good grades. I think his confidence is increasing. I am praying each week that he catches up. For the first time this year, he got all smiley faces on his behavior card. He got a prize for that like I promised. We now have SpongeBob operation game. He was every excited. We have begun playing board games on a more regular basis and he seems to be loving it.

Taylor is still doing well in school. Her best friend, Ariane, is in a family planning class or some sort of Home Economics course and she had to be a mother for a weekend. Let me tell you, they sure have come a long way from carrying eggs around as was the case when I was in high school. She had a computerized doll that was linked to a bracelet she had to wear all weekend. She could not be separated from her baby or the teacher would know. We had plans to take the girls to see a movie and the haunted house downtown. So, we had to take the baby. (My sister-in-law offered to baby sit but she could not be separated from it.) It cries to be fed and have its diaper changed. It had two diapers with pads and it knew when the appropriate diaper was on. You couldn't let its head fall backwards or it would let out a blood curdling scream. When it ate, it made slurping sounds. It would giggle. While we were in line for the haunted house, we had to feed it. So we realized we would have to change it in the house. (It takes about 30 minutes to go through it.) And we did. We walked all around bricktown and we sure did get stares. What is that young girl doing with a baby and one of another race at that?! It was really funny to see the stares. You sure can see how many people judge first before knowing the whole story. It was a definite learning experience for all of us. That baby cried all night. My mommy ears turned on every time but the girls took care of it. Ariane seem pleased and thought it was all fun. I told her that it needed one other feature to make it more realistic...it needed to poop and puke. Then she might not have thought it was so fun! LOL

Chance is working off and on. He's still worried about everything. I enrolled him in a computer course at work. I am hoping he will stay enrolled and I can get him through some college. He needs some confidence that he can hit the books too.

I have been thoroughly enjoying my Leadership class. We have our third meeting on Friday. We had our first at the OKC Art Museum and I got to see the Roman exhibit from the Louvre. That was freakin awesome!!! I learned so much. We had a guided tour and other people followed our tour around to learn about the pieces. I don't know if I will ever make it to see the Louvre in person, but now I can say I've seen at least part of it. They actually come and place the pieces for the exhibit when they send those around. We learned how they were shipped and boxed and everything. Fascinating. I would never would have seen that exhibit if it hadn't been for the leadership class. We also saw the Chihuly glass exhibition. That was awesome too. All hand blown and he only has one eye. It was absolutely beautiful. Here's a link: http://www.okcmoa.com/exhibitions/dalechihuly-theexhibition Here's a direct link to his website: http://www.chihuly.com/ You can see some of his glass stuff on that. I highly recommend you visit the museum to see it.

Our second meeting was held at the OK History Museum. That was interesting too. Got to see alot of native american history which was my favorite. We did not have much time or a guided tour, so I did not get to see much. But the curator of the museum, gave us a wonderful presentation about one of the artists and tied it to a leadership lesson. It was very interesting. The table in the conference room was gigantic and wooden and modeled after a feather. It was made in that room for the board of directors and it is too big to be removed from the room. Beautiful is all I can say.

I am learning about leadership too. We have speakers and bonding activities to reflect upon at the end of the day. I am so glad I applied for the program. I wish I could attend all the classes in the future too! They do tell us we will be involved with class II so we will see.

Still haven't worked on that paper. I owe about $10,000 to the library right now for all the books I still have. I just can't get to writing it. I don't want to. Really, just don't want to. I need some motivation to sit down and do it. I just can't. I feel like the little guy lost in the desert who is crawling for water. He see it over the hill and then it's an illusion. I see my written paper but when I get ready to crawl, I cramp up. Ugh.

And then there's Weight Watchers. So I learned alot, but found it increasingly difficult to keep going each week and talk about food. I have never talked about food so much in my life. It was so repetitive. I got the picture and learned how to eat properly. I have the books and the points calculator and even the WW scale. But going to those meetings just were not my thing. And my problem has never really been overeating (which they talk about alot). My problem is eating properly. Putting back that chocolate and for heaven's sake, those dang cokes. So, I made a big decision to take that monthly fee and apply it to a gym membership. I found an all women's gym that is open 24/7. I absolutely love it!!!! I joined on October 1. I have been trying to go 3 times a week. I do 30 - 40 minutes on the treadmill (I can actually go longer than that but try to keep my time away from home down) and then I do weights for another 30 minutes. I am being careful with my back. They also have classes, tanning and massage chairs that are all included in the monthly fee. NO contracts or anything. I can pay for whichever month I want without penalty. But of course, I'm automatically deducting. I can't even begin to tell you how good it feels to work out again. This has been better than any WW. I gained some of my weight back before I joined the gym and I really haven't been super attempting to count points or anything. Just been eating regular. So my weight has maintained. But I can feel my body shifting around. The exercise is working. Did I tell you how much I love it???? I so do!!! I didn't get to go 3 times last week but hopefully I can stay on schedule this week. I plan to go back on Thursday but there is an evening work event. I don't really want to go but if I get asked, I may have to. Hoping that doesn't happen.

Well I guess I will stop for now. I need to check my class and try to grade some. I am pretty worn out tonight. Work has been crazy.

Looking forward to Caden's party and the holidays. Can't wait to see everyone. I see potato salad....Yummmmmmmm!

I got some news today...

I had planned to write tonight before I read that I was in trouble with Beth, so I guess I had good intentions.

Well I didn't get that job. I didn't really think I would but it was one of those things I had to do for appearances sake. I would've liked the steadier hours and the higher pay, but I am not sure I would've really loved the whole job. I really only wanted part of it. So, although I am somewhat disappointed I am OK. I told myself if it was meant to be, it would happen. Alas, it was not. My good friend got it.

Even though that didn't happen, something else good did. That leadership program I mentioned last time I wrote...I found out today that I got accepted. I was so shocked. I am not sure how many people applied, but there were only 16 people in the whole college who got accepted. I am pretty thrilled. Kinda nervous but thrilled. Even better, is I'm pretty good friends with some of the people who also got accepted. My orientation is on the 11th...we get to go to a fancy restaurant in Bricktown that I've never been able to afford to go to (Nonna's). We get our binders, a small speech from the president, dinner, and then a social afterwards. I'm not too thrilled about the social but I guess I have to suck it up and go. The next day, Friday, we spend our day at the OK Museum of Art. I have never been there so that is really exciting. We have to do the Myer's Briggs personality test and some teambuilding stuff, but we also get to tour the museum. Yay!!! They will provide us breakfast, lunch, and can't remember about dinner but we do have another social hour after 5:00. I am beyond stunned. This program will last until April. It is mandatory I participate and my boss has to allow me the time to do it. I will have homework between each workshop. This week I have to write my own biography with pretty specific information. I don't think mine is going to be very fancy. Last time I did any community service work was when I coached Taylor's cheer squad. That's not too leadership like for this program. I also have to fill out the MB test for our evaluation at the workshop. I didn't think I would be this excited but I really am. I needed something good to happen to me. This year has really sucked.

It pained me greatly, but I dropped my class for this semester. Mostly for financial reasons. I still am paying off spring. Dang OU is expensive!!! Glad I pay resident tuition! Also, I haven't finished my paper and I really need to make sure I get that done. I am teaching 3 classes this semester. I'm teaching 2 right now and the third will start in October. I figure with all that going on, it is best to wait until spring.

After not getting the job, I have been thinking about what I want to be when I grow up...AGAIN. I still freaking don't know. On the one hand, I am excited to pursue my Masters in Adult and Higher Ed. It's what I've done for the past 14 years. But I am not sure about the opportunity for mobility. I like the area I'm in and I'm not really interested outside of it. But maybe I will be someday... What I have been thinking about is possibly getting an alternative certification for teaching. I would like to teach first, second or third grade. Always have wanted to since I was a kid. But, I just don't know if I would be patient with it. I hear the parents are the hardest to deal with. I deal with them now but I can tell them to go away because their kid is a grown up and they don't have rights to ask! Anyway, I'm thinking. If I do it, I will probably go back to UCO and take some undergrad courses there. I wouldn't want to start just with taking that test. I would really prepare myself better than that. So, I'm thinking....

Chance has been going crazy. Business is really slow with these dang gas prices. He had a minor melt down the other nite and was expressing his dislike for becoming a housewife. Fall flowers start in a few weeks and he has a potential big job in the works. It has felt like winter time for me...the house is spotless and the laundry stays done. I really like having a housewife personally. As long as he keeps his paycheck coming in it works for me!!! LOL

Taylor is really liking high school. I am so excited about that. We don't have access to the parent portal yet, and I am anxious to see her grades. She got an A on her biology test. She loves her spanish class and the teacher. Her biology teacher is the football coach. She seems to be doing her homework. I have a big smile on my face just thinking about it.

Tristan is touch and go with school. His IEP hasn't started and I am really unhappy about that. I have already sent an "inquiry" about it and spoken with the IEP teacher. Waited a week for the next step and she never called me. I will be bothering them again next week. They are going to hate me until they get him in that program. It took us all year to get him to qualify for it and now they are dragging their feet. I think I'm going to be "that" mom if they don't watch out. I am trying to find my inner chi (is that how you spell it?). OOOOHHHHHMMMMM.....

We are going to Chance's dad's tomorrow to watch the game. We haven't seen them in a while, so it should be fun. Wow. I just thought...Phil must be excited to get better access to the games soon!

Vega is now 52 pounds. We are really days away from getting her fixed. That excites me greatly. Chance just needs to make the appointment before he gets too busy with work. My little girl is going to be woman soon! I'm not sure I've ever had a dog quite like her. She's certainly not the sharpest crayon in the box. Good thing she's cute.

I've been having a high school reunion on facebook lately. My HS Pom coach found me and then several other classmates. It's been quite fun. I can't believe I'm talking to some of these people. And the girls don't really look older. That is amazing.

I am really sad that I had to miss the family dinner. I would've loved to have seen everyone. But August is my super busy month...we are open 12 hours a day. Tristan needs special routines at nite for school. It just wasn't a good time for us. I will make every effort to make the next family event. I really wanted to see Tara...it's been forever. And that Jonah... he's so cute! I didn't get to hold him last time I saw him. I am excited to know that I will get to see Phil and Jackie more often very soon. Hopefully, that will mean Chara, Josh and Jonah too. Yay!!! I love you all!

Well this is yet another long Brandee post. I hope I haven't bored you to tears and I hope I have appeased Beth. I so hate to upset her. Hasta luego dudes!

Been a long time

I can't believe how long it's been since I've written. Not sure I have much to say. The blogging bug has been sleeping.

I've been back to work full-time since my last shot (the last week of May). It was hard going back and it was busy. Had lots of stuff to catch up on and had to wait out a certain amount of time for everyone to not be mad at me. It's really busy again - August is closing in. I have a lot on my plate and it's been stressful.

I bit the bullet and applied for a job a step above where I am now. I would actually be assistant boss to the peeps that are my peers now. (I'll tell ya the title if I get it.) I totally blew the interview. It really stressed me out and made me nervous. My presentation sucked. Seriously, I let my nerves get the best of me. Why in the hell do I do that????? AAAHHH! The only thing I have going for me is that I have been there so long and have "all the knowledge" as everyone tells me. Well 2 of my co-workers also applied and they could very easily beat me out even though I've got tons more years in. So, I'm just waiting. I interviewed yesterday. The only good thing about the past three days is I lost 3 pounds since Tuesday just over the stress of the interview. I truly am stupid!!! But I'll take the loss.

Tristan fell down outside today and cut his earlobe wide open. The cut is so odd and in such a strange place that all the nurses and another doctor had to come in and look at it. They said it was really strange he didn't have one other scratch on him. But it was deep so now he has about 4 or 5 stitches in him. He won't get to swim at Caden's house tomorrow but he is excited to show off his battle wound.

We took the kids to Arbuckle Wilderness last week. I am not sure it was worth the money since almost all the walk-in stuff was closed or simply didn't exist. I felt sorry for some of the animals in the walk-in area. No water or food. It was 100 degrees and 2 of the animals were very pregnant. I couldn't look. The drive through really hadn't approved since we were last there 4 or 5 years ago. I dunno. They really need to do some major work there. I wish I had tons of money. I would donate. I think we'll try the tiger place in Winnewood next time.

I have gained weight since I went back to work. So, that has depressed me some. I am not following the plan like I should but I remain aware of what to do and not do. The Brandee plan is not as good as the WW plan.

The puppy is getting so big. She's a mess. Very cute but a mess. I can't wait til the puppy stage is over. We can get her fixed in September. She'll be 6 months old then. She's already half the size of Leia. I hope she doesn't get as big as I think she will. We really don't have room for a horse in this house. She's doing much better around the other animals. If she's in a playful mood she annoys the crap out of them. But they can hang around all right. She can't be loose in the house yet but she's getting closer.

I still haven't finished my paper for my class. I start my next semester the week of August 25. Somehow I knew this would happen.

I am also applying for a leadership program at work. They are only taking 16 people so I probably won't get in this time. But I gotta try.

Tristan's summer school is over next week. Yay. We've had to make mom and dad pick him up every day. I bet they are ready to save on gas.

So ... um.... can't think of much else. If I do, I'll write again. Not so exciting stuff. Later.

Normal

Well, things are finally feeling normal again. I worked part time last week and it was nice doing something regular and normal. I had my second shot last Wednesday and they seem to really help. There are actually little bits of time I don't think about pain. I sometimes get overly agressive trying to do normal things on my leg or bending and I get a strong reminder I'm not 100%. So I still have to try to be careful. My final shot is this Wednesday, and I am hoping it will relieve even more.

I go back to work full-time tomorrow. A bit nervous about it as sitting in the office chair still hurts. But I am going to persevere.

While I was down, I didn't give much thought to my diet. I only had pain on my mind. I was sad I couldn't go to WW on Sunday's but it just wasn't feasible. I went last week for the first time on my own. The week before that (Mother's Day) Chance drove me just to weigh. I was pleasantly surprised to find that I had lost 6 pounds when he took me. Last week I lost another 2.2. That is a total of 18.2 pounds all together! It made me happy.

Last week after returning to work and a crazy schedule, I ate out alot. That meant way more fast food than I had had in a long time. Well I knew this week would be a gainer. I thought 2 pounds at least but it was only 0.6 pounds. I was proud that even though I had awful food, I still tried to make it not so bad. I guess it worked. 0.6 is way better than 2!

I could tell that I had lost some...all my shorts and capris I bought last summer (because everything was getting old and tight), now fall off me. I don't even have to unzip them. Most of my slacks are getting loose too. So today I thought, why not measure myself since I hadn't in many weeks and I had such a good loss going on. I got happy again.

I lost another 2 inches in my waist for 4.5 inches total. I lost 1 inch in my hips - 3 inches total. I lost 3/4 inch in my thigh for a total of 2 inches. My arms remain the same at a one inch loss. That was really nice to see!!! I'm feeling a surge of progress and I think it will make it easier for me as I go back to work and lunch with the girls.

I didn't get to swim as much as I hoped today. Oh well, I will get to next weekend. I can't "submerge" in water after the shot. I hope I didn't do anything bad by getting in a bit today...

Well, I don't really have much to say today. Just wanted to post my inches lost. Later...

Stupid way to burn up your expensive gas...

So today is the first day after my first shot. My goal was to get up, drive the car to Tristan's school, sit in a chair and watch his awards assembly, drive to the doctor office to drop off my FMLA forms, drive home and then try to sit as much as possible, either at the computer or upright in any other chair. I'm trying to gauge my tolerance level so I can get back to work. Well, let me tell you how my morning really went...

Of course we are running late as usual. I haven't had to get up early for a month and half now so I wasn't too speedy getting me and Tristan ready. We rush to school and get there right at 8:30 when the bell is ringing. We park in the street and he starts getting out before I'm ready for him to. I'm grabbing stuff, telling him to stand on the curb and wait on me. I'm rushing thinking that I'm causing him to be tardy. We run in the building to find they are not giving tardies as it's assembly day. I sign in and go to the cafeteria to wait the 15 minutes for the assembly to start. Great program...he got a reading award. I go in his room and hug him and so forth. Start going out to my car about 9:25 and can't find my keys. Oh no! Must've left them on the table. No not there. Not in the prinicpal's office or my purse or my pants. Hmmm... guess I left them in my car. Crap!! I go outside and as I approach the car I think, "I hear a car running. Oh surely not!!!" But yes, yes. It was my car. Running and locked up. For the past hour.

I call Chance. He says there's no way he can get there. It would cost too much. More than a locksmith. Gives me a number to call. Call it, tell them what an idiot I am and I find they are in OKC. He says no way he can get anyone there. So I get referred. Referred again. And finally referred to Johnny...told to tell him Christina had me call. He says he can be there in 20 minutes. So I stand outside and wait. All the other parents are coming in and staring at me. I'm just standing outside my running car. I'm an idiot. After about 30 minutes, I am worried he can't find me but he calls. He's lost and after about 10 minutes, I get him to me. He takes about 2 minutes to get my car open. Says he wants cash only. I don't have cash. So luckily he has wireless credit card machine. Costs me $5.00 extra. I wonder if he would've locked my car back up if he didn't have that wireless card machine. I didn't ask. Was just grateful to get in my car. I note I am a dumb a$$.

I get on the road, my leg a little sore from standing all that time, but overall not as painful as driving usually is. I'm happy. Get to Dr. Bever's office (my primary care Dr.) and explain my situation and that I need my FMLA papers filled out. She tells me it's $35 but she says I really should go to the spine specialist since he has the details of what is going on. I say OK...just doing what my HR office told me to do. Drive further on to Dr. Wright's office. Get in there and she says it's only $10 (yay!) but it takes 7 - 10 working days and they only accept cash. Seriously? Not even the debit card which is the same? No. Cash. OK. I'll go to the ATM. Drive down the street to get it and go back. She is very helpful and takes my stuff.

By this time I am exhausted ... I haven't had much physical activity for a while. But overall, I'm feeling good with lower levels of pain. I drive all the way home and I'm happy. I get home after 11 and get to eat finally. Yay. I lay down and snooze a while inbetween fighting off the puppy from wanting to chew on me and everything else in the house. She is an absolute mess. I'm only able to write this cuz she's asleep. It's absolutely like having a baby around.

So...that's what happened. I met all my goals, it just took me a while to get there. I'm writing this in my big office chair trying to see how long I can sit here. Well I have to leave in a bit to get Taylor, Ashley and Tristan from school. But that will be another test of pain.

I was surprised at how easy the shot was. I had heard so many stories of how painful they are but that they are worth it. I guess they gave me good drugs. I dunno. But it was really a strange experience. He puts in the medicine and I feel pressure/pain in my lower back. I let out a small ouch, he says hold on and I'll give you a break. Then he says, OK, putting in some more. This time, I feel it in my butt where I have tons of pain. The exact spot. Freaky. I moan again. He says ok take a break. He tells me he's only putting in 1 cc at a time. Guess that's a small amount but it sure felt like a lot! He does it a few more times and each time, I feel my main pain points get pressure...my thigh and my calf too. It was freaky how it found all the places I have been hurting. It was over in a matter of minutes. I couldn't believe it. I will be able to handle the others no problem. I am sore where they put the needles in and I was kinda funky yesterday. But overall not as traumatic as I thought. I think these things are going to fix me!!!! I am so happy!!!!! If I am not at work tomorrow, I plan to go on Monday. I am very excited.

School is out on Wednesday so we have to plan for schedule changes for the kids. Taylor goes to her mom's every other week and Tristan will be spending all day at daycare. In July, he will attend summer school.

Taylor gets her driving permit on the 27th and then will start her driving with the man from driver's ed. She's excited. I am too. I will have a chauffeur.

Tristan was recommended to stay back in first grade. But then his teacher told me that the IEP lady, the principal and her decided he should go to 2nd grade as long as he spends a minimum of 3 hours per day with the IEP lady. I had to deny the recommendation on paper, but they tell me they can get him to 2nd grade level by 2nd semester. I am taking their word for it. I hope it doesn't backfire in my face. Tristan is excited. After watching him with his classmates today, I am glad. He is so much bigger than they are. He would look so funny with those smaller kids if he was held back. I hope it works. He seems to understand what is going on. I hope to work with him alot over the summer.

Chance has been having better days. He's still wearing the monitor. He hates it. But he's making some diet changes, taking new vitamins and trying really hard to prevent episodes. His work is keeping him really busy. They are behind right now cuz of all our medical issues.

Well I have to go now to get the kids. I hope to write again soon. Until next time... gosh I'm an idiot!!!